tomorrow

what......
what is this.

what is this feeling.

where am I?

oh, its still night
the sun hasnt come out yet.

but, where am I?

I feel grass.
and pebbles.
pricking my back and my neck and my head.

I can see shattered glass, next to me.

I can see open sky above me.
but why are there no stars?
why is there no moon?

its just dark. a black sea. upside down.
is that really the sky?

my head is throbbing.
its painful. like nothing else that Ive ever felt.
haemorrage?

my chest is wet. its drenched.
thick liquid.
am I leaking blood?

I cant feel my left arm. or my legs.

shit.
I cant move.
I cant get up.

what happened to me?

I can hardly breathe.
my chest heaves with each breath.
its painful.
its troublesome.

cant I just stop breathing?
Mmm.
that would be nice.
and it doesnt seem far off, I suppose. its only a matter of time now.

is this how death is like?

there's no dignity in it.
lying in the dirt like this.
death isnt the release of pain, its much more painful than any pain in life!
its sickening.
this waiting. before I finally end. this stupid waiting.

wait.

I dont want to die.
not yet.

am I fated to die like this?
with everything incomplete?
still a virgin?
still in college?

I want to live.
a bit more.

feh.
Im about to die.
and youre still on my mind.
even now.
get out.

wont you let me die peacefully?

noooooo!

maybe there's still hope.

maybe I can still survive.

if I shout.
If I scream.

someone.

save me.

someonee

Im about to die!


I can hear someone. coming.
its my roommate.

thank goodness.

"dude. youre totally wasted. you drank like shit dude. whatever. hangover or no hangover. get the f*ck up!"

phew.

all is well, it seems.