take a step forward
and dont ever look back.
was what you had decided, wasnt it?
its just a gash.
this scar will heal, you thought.
it isnt so bad, It can be lived with.
was what you reasoned to yourself, wasnt it?
everything, is in the end, temporary.
I'll change myself.
and then everything will be fine.
was what you planned, wasnt it?
that night, with a heavy heart
and eyes so wet
you slept
so you could dream of a better ending, right?
people are logical.
people are just.
the world can be fair, you just need to trust
was what you hoped for, didnt you?
life, is supposed to be a straight line
so that you can go forwards, with each step
but, now youre in a circle
that you keep coming back to
and you wonder.
why.
is it even worth it?
Im righteous, but why is the world still so cruel?
it isnt fair, was it ever just?
I cannot forget, those feelings are too deep
is what you think now.
and I.
I cant give you any hope.
the questions you ask.
the thoughts you think.
I cant hope to ever answer them, no one can.
the pain you carry. shall always pierce.
but, the paths you took, are worth remembering
the parts you carved, are worth keeping
even if there is a price.
maybe one day, you'll find another shoulder
to help carry your burden
because you carry the greatest weight of all
but you cannot share it
youre made that way, right?
to carry, without flinching
the turmoil stays within
the empty smile you give
is mistaken for being shallow
but they look at your lips
and not your eyes, do they?
but, remember.
all things, that give, dont always have to recieve
the wind that touches your face
shall always be there
never leaving
always giving.
and the only true feelings that I can pass on to you
is one of belief.
the burden, you can carry,
and only you can carry it
you'll shed these tears again.
so that no one else has to.
you'll do it.
because,
youve never been pure.
but youve always been good.
and as I see you
walking on that thorny road.
with nothing for company but the wind.
you look at me
and smile
a smile you learned to smile, through your tears
a smile of companionship, of love, of laughter and of pain
a smile of the world
and I stare into those eyes
that best shade of brown
you pierce me
and I see you
like you should be seen
the greatest, you have always been
and I smile back
for I shall never forget.
these unchanged feelings you shared.
these unsaid words I felt.
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every word rings true !
ReplyDelete"youve never been pure.
but youve always been good." am writing down these words so that i'll forever remember them.
the empty smile you give
ReplyDeleteis mistaken for being shallow
but they look at your lips
and not your eyes, do they?
can i say "krafty glue!"
*tight hug*
the pain you carry. shall always pierce.
ReplyDeletebut, the paths you took, are worth remembering
the parts you carved, are worth keeping
even if there is a price.
maybe one day, you'll find another shoulder
to help carry your burden
because you carry the greatest weight of all
but you cannot share it
I'll remember...
This,deluded doc, is a masterpiece..
WOW.
ReplyDeleteYou had me hooked from the first word, it's beautiful, and well, so honestly true.
I can relate, in a strange way. = )
'life, is supposed to be a straight line
ReplyDeleteso that you can go forwards, with each step
but, now youre in a circle
that you keep coming back to
and you wonder.
why.'
GOSH this is awesome shit. never knew someone who's fooling around all the time could hit so hard...
liked it. :)
jus 1 word would suffice-- BEAUTIFUL!
ReplyDeleteI love it! its absolutely fabulous..where has this you been??
ReplyDelete:)
awwww
ReplyDelete:)
so true. so pure..ure lying, it is pure..u just dont know it.
nice one deluded.
cheers
vyo
*crying
ReplyDelete*hugs hugs lots of hugs!!
Wow..I am a regular viewer of your blog, and honestly i never thought you'd ever come up with something like this..its really amazing and hauntingly true!!! Wonder what else you've been hiding up ha???
ReplyDeleteYou just described my life.
ReplyDeleteIt was like you were talking to me, ABOUT me.
And this has happened only once - when I heard A Beautiful Mess by Jason Mraz.
Thank you, my mind is clearer now.
:)
ReplyDeletenever expected this!
its beautifully written, i could actually feel it happening to me while i read.
FUCK!
ReplyDelete*head spinning*
*realisation, I SHOULD have come 2 the cyber as soon as i got ur msg*
FUCK!
i like the way your though moves. It like ur knitting and unknitting, building and rebuilding. love the structure. And love the part where ur talking about life being a straight line but indeed it is a circle. Good work! :)
ReplyDeleteAfter writing that I visited ur profile. So far, i thought a woman wrote it! Very well expressed indeed!
ReplyDeletewhat a beat!
ReplyDeletemy heart went dhak dhak all the while!
@i'll try
ReplyDeletethanks!
@prachi
glued!
@tinky
you, tinkerbell, are cute, for saying that
@laya
you can? reallly?
@AD
ReplyDeletehaha. the question is.
did it go dhak dhak for me? ;)
@deluded
wow man. youre so cool.
I worship you.
and thanks for so many comments! really appreciated!
kya isko chura sakte hai.. :P
ReplyDeleteWow. Really nice - very expressive of comfortable melancholy. Thought provoking without being over the top.
ReplyDeleteMeh. I wish i were a medical student; to think they write like this. :)
Hey...
ReplyDeleteI cudn't read thru ur posts...And, now,I hate myself for not being able to read ...
This one is just:
Amazing
Beautiful
Depth- of ur experience with this world shows up...
Just An Amazing Read !! :)
Waiting for your next post! :)
Hey..i hope you wont mind..I have put a link to this post of urs on my blog...! :)
ReplyDelete@joie
ReplyDeletesure, if you want to!!!
@TS
nah, we mostly dont write!!
@penny
*kisses the floor she walks on ;)
Touching! I wrote something (my post--'A journey called life') vaguely on these lines, but compared to your poignancy, my post would turn out ... well, technical!
ReplyDeleteTC and hope you don't delude yourself into trying to forget your conclusions.
haha.
ReplyDeletecant help that.
Im ulitmately - deluded
There seems to be something on your mind.....those words don't come out of nowhere...they stem from a bitter experience.
ReplyDeleteBut one doesn't have to WAIT for better times to forget those sad moments.They shouldn't make us sad now.
Analyse what you can do about the bad things that(may)have happened to you-
a)can you do something about them??-THEN DO SOMETHING
b)are they not correctable?-THEN MOVE FORWARD WITH WHAT YOU HAVE
About the writing....very beautiful...just don't allow the happenings of the past haunt you now
There's too much work to be done!!!